conflicted

Now thats its all over, I feel incredibly conflicted.

I feel guilty, then angry, then momentarily happy, then depressed, then guilty again. 

I know there is nothing I can do. 

But how can I be happy for myself when my best friends are suffering?

Nothing is ever as simple as you want it to be. 

finally

college...

so far so good!
However, I the more schools I here from, the more nervous I get.
I am definitely starting to feel the pressure of this decision.
I can't even decide what shirt to wear to school most days. How the hell am I supposed to decide where to spend the next four years, possibly more, of my life?!?! Its already nerve wrecking enough.... geez

the 30th is going to be the worst day ever....

ONE WEEK

rain dance

two of my favorite people

choir jokes

"We jai-pimped the other groups jai-ho."

damn straight.
i love choir.

my little alien plant

A present to myself. Week 3: - another 3

A Mad Girl's Love Song

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

Sylvia Plath

Sometimes we read quite beautiful things in school.

cantando bajo la lluvia

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

I love getting honked at by cars while walking on the Sunset Strip.

I love getting asked to to have drinks with creepy 40 year old men. 

I love going to fancy restaurants in fancy clothes. 

I love chatting up security guards at Hustler. 

I love red lipstick.  

I love the rain. 

I love Madi.

Happy birthday to the most wonderful, adventurous, crazy, hilarious, compassionate person-- 

My best friend in the whole world.

Happy 18th Madi!!

too many curls

I just got my hair done at the Dry Bar... and I look like freaking Shirley Temple.

 Maybe it works for her, but not such a hot look on a 17 year old. 

Thank the lord I know how to use a hair blow dryer. 

glee

I need to take a moment to appreciate Glee.

I have been a die hard Gleek from the start. 

And yes, Glee has had its faults (like how, for example, without ANY rehearsal, everyone in the show bursts into song in perfect harmony... um not possible, and how they are all really like 30 but they are supposed be juniors and sophomores in high school? yeah no.), but I continue to be amazed, enthralled, inspired, uplifted, enamored (BLAINE)... basically I could go on forever. 

I love how they push the boundaries and are not afraid to address controversial and pressing issues which teens everywhere must face, and more importantly do so in an entertaining, light hearted fashion.  

I'm sure people across country, dare I say world, are moved by this show the way that I am, so I just want to say, thank you, Glee.

oh and KLAINE!!! HOLY MOTHER OF GOD. i'm in love with darren criss.

(just in case you didnt know)

just a little tribute   

also, I absolutely loved the originals, which reminds me, I need to write some new songs. 

Yes I know, this post is a little long (for me at least).

And yes, it was twice as long before I edited it.  

  

2/2

Yay! Its literally SUCH a relief!

flaks

week one: -3.5
week two: -5

YAY IM SO PUMPED

hilarious!

Hipster: C'mon guys, hurry the fuck up, tattoos are on me.
Drunk hipster: Oh shit! Let's go, I want a butterfly on my forehead.

--St. Mark's


overheard in new york is the best website ever! Its basically a collection of conversations or quotes people overhear in different places throughout new york. I believe there are other "overheard in" websites but I haven't had a chance to check them out yet.

hands down. so funny.

someday soon

this makes me want to dance

If all else fails, I think I will become a makeup artist.

so no matter what, its all good :)

I am a dreamer

A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.

John Lennon

Congrats to the most wonderful friend ever for getting into NYU! 


She may not go there in the end, but if she does....


I know she will take the never-resting New York City by storm, do amazing things and for sure perform in incredible places!


I LOVE MADI!


I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY ECSTATIC EXCITED PROUD!

sometimes

its nice to know that when you are gone,
people realize you are not there.

its nice to be missed.

these are a few of my favorite things

get it straight

 "Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonymously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us."   Jane Austen (Pride and Prejudice)